I forgot how much I loved my writing, it was my rock in times of worry and my celebratory release in victory. I’ve been away from my writing for a couple of months now because I faded away from what was important to me. I stopped placing priority on my writing and for that I was wrong…oh so wrong.
So here I am, I’m back and I’m never letting this go again. When I think back to ‘why’ I started writing it brings up a lot of emotion. I would not be the person I am now if I had not picked up my pen and paper in June of 2018 and started writing to my heart’s content.
Struggling with social anxiety mixed with a lack of self worth is why I began writing. What I realised is that this experience is overwhelming to deal with and I wanted to create a place where others could turn to – so that they could read stories and learn from them. The stuff that happens in our heads can be difficult to understand for people of all ages and we need to work together to understand it.
The way I see it is that we’re all connected – it’s as if we’re one being – there’s a bubble that surrounds us all. Whilst we are all individuals, we’re part of one creature. I’ll tell you why…
We all have families and friends and we constantly interact with people on a day to day basis. The way I act towards you, can largely impact how you feel. The way that you respond to my actions greatly influences how I feel.
We take that emotion and those feelings from that previous encounter and we bring it to our next interaction. If we allow bad feelings from our previous encounters to overshadow our future interactions we’re creating a sense of negativity in the community of humans that exists as a unified creature – and we’re part of that creature.
If I hurt you, that hurts me and if you hurt me – it hurts you too. Whether that be immediately or somewhere long down the track – how we make others feel is ultimately what we bring to the world.
Don’t ever underestimate your interactions with others and always present your best self. Don’t save your best self for certain moments – I used to think that way – but now I don’t because if I always act my best – my best will become better – so there’s no point saving a version of yourself for only some people or only some situations because that version will stay static – but for fulfilment sake you need it to grow – you need to see progress.
So here I am, I’m back and I’m going to present my best self – where growth pursues, happiness cultivates.